An Emotional + Challenging Week...

#1 Mocha (May 2000 – 26th November 2012)

(Pictures taken recently)

It has been an emotional week for me...
On Monday morning, I've send my cat, Mocha to UVH in UPM...
Going there since he’s having a difficulty in breathing...
Seeing him try to breathe just like a human when we encounter asthma...
When we finish consultation with the Vet, Mocha need to be warded...
I already know this will be happen...
Plus on the evening I need to attend a workshop in KL...
To be truth when I was about going out from the Vet’s consultation room, I just know I might not be seeing him for a while...
I left the room quite early since I need to take his wet food in the car...
It’s quite tearing moments...
I didn't get the chance to kiss him since I've to pass his food to one of the attending there...
As usual, going back to the office plus a meeting as well...
Then I leave the office early since I need to pack my things before drove to KL...
When I reach my house, suddenly Ayah told me that he will send me there...
I was quite puzzled...
All these while, when I’m already own my humble car; he does sometime do hesitate to send me anywhere...
This must be something...
Suddenly, he broke the news about our beloved, Mocha...
He can’t make it....
Actually while I’m driving home, my tears suddenly falls like a Nigeria falls...
It keeps coming down but I managed to make it stop when I finally reach the parking lots...
Maybe the HH Zikrullah helps me....
When I realize that Mocha no longer with us, suddenly I just blank...
It’s like you loss one of your family member....
He had been with us since 2000...
That why my lil sis always said that he’s our playmate too...
It wasn't easy to digest the fact...
I just send him in the UVH with lots of hopes that he’ll getting better but I supposed Allah swt loves him more...
Like my lil sis mentioned on one of my IG pictures, “He was, and shall forever be loved by us. I saw him from tiny-as.big.as.my.three.little.fingers-till yesterday. I know somehow he’s rest in peace. We shall miss deeply his footsteps everywhere in the house...”
The next day when we’re in UVH to collect his body, it took me a lot of courage to deals with the workers day...
Until the moment I want to settle the bills, tears keep falling...
When every customer in UVH coming with their cats just makes me thinking of him...
We need to wait for a while since the Vet’s need to do the last procedure due to our request to take him and bury him in our house compound...
We may opt for an option to bury him in UVH itself but he’s just more that a cat or pet to us...
When everything ready, we have been called to meet the Vet attending to him...
We ask for a permission to have a look at his fierce face...
He looks so calm and at peace...
At least I know he’s alright and I know he’ll happy reuniting with his fellow brothers Peekaboo and Hazel...
The fact that he has been with us for past 12 years make the bonds so unique...
Mocha, you’ll forever be remembered...

#2 Thank You Allah =)

(Pic Credit: Ala)

Being emotional stress for past 4 days couldn't easily make me smile...
I might be smiling and laughing but no one knows what’s inside...
Only my family knows...
Thanks to my parent who keep checking on me...
They know I’m quite emotional when dealing with a loss one...
But alhamdullilah, I’m still being able to breathe the air...
For past 20++ years, He still gives me a chance...
For those who been wishing from last night, many many thanks and may Allah grants all of you a blessing...
Thanks for the duas too...
May He grant all the duas that being make for me, inshaAllah...


#3 Blackouts

When I was in KL for work purposes, we've been experience a serious blackout...
More than 6 hours we need to be in a hotel that totally blackout...
Even we need to climb the stairs just to go to our room...
To make it worst, the staircase doesn't have any emergency exit lights...
In fact our IED Director also needs to climb the stairs just to get in his room...
I have a deep respect on him...
As of my colleague said to me, maybe he wants to feel what we've going through...
Such a memorable working trips...
However one thing’s for sure, we’ll not do or hold any events in that hotel anymore...

Chronicles of My September 2012…

It already towards the ends of September…
Lot and lots of things happen…
I would like to list out some of the things that happen or took place…

1st Sept – My family host a small feast towards the late beloved ones and thanksgiving towards His blessing beside slot in an Eidfitr open house…
3rd Sept – My beloved Ayah’s b-day... we did an advanced celebration…
7th Sept – I get to know that my mentor in IED will be transferring to other division in MOE… It will be a lost as a mentor and sifu either in my service as PSD officer or even as my adviser in sort of things....
Middle of Sept – I’m being test by knowing a “crony-thingy” happen in processing my claim, which make my mode swing 360 degree…
21st Sept – I noticed there’s something wrong with my yearly increment… Maybe a kifarah from Him… To make me reflect on so many things…
26th Sept – One of my besties in office will be leaving us since she got an offer which is permanent… mixed feeling for her… Happy by getting a permanent job finally, but quite sad since we’re apart…
28th Sept – Will a last day for 2 of my besties… One will be leaving for a PSD course while another for a job offer…

Overall, there’s a list for my September…
My feelings were jumble up…
One moment I do feel I’m a happiest lady while in other moment I do feel quite sad…
This month I shall announce it quite a mentally chanllenge’s month…
I need to deal with various occasions that took place…
The most mentally challenge would be on 28th Sept since I will lose 2 besties…
Knowing them while I’m in IED is truly a blessing…

(Pic Credit: Lot & Lots of Photographers)

#1
The one that will be going for PSD course is the first person whom I know during my early days in IED…
She did a good job by introducing me to all the people there…
In fact, she willingly shares a working table with me for a week…
At first I do thought that she’s from Southern region but my guessing is wrong as she’s hail from the East Coast of Malaysia…
We became close as she’s just a 2 months senior from me…
Everywhere we go or whatever we do, people would mistakenly misidentify us…
We used to be called by each other name…
Sitting together in various meetings…
A partner for various occasions…
But lately we do apart since both of us charting a different life path….
I did miss you…
Hope you will be enjoying your course and pass with flying colours…
I wish one day you’ll be a next CS in any ministries???

#2
This one also hails from East Coast of Malaysia…
Knowing her by having a good lunch together…
This one having so many nicknames that each of it's very unique…
Up to the extend that people might thinking I was talking to different people whenever I do called her by various nicknames…
Since in my unit, I’m being surrounds by a great man, so her present during any of my meetings is truly a blessing….
She’s a God send by helping me in writing a headache meeting’s minute…
Since we become friends, I do involved some major occasions in her life…
Know her family too…
I hope you’ll excel in the new carreer…
I wish I can still work with you in a future, in sha Allah…
All the best in future undertakings…
Will be missing you…

25 Ultimate Tips for Better Life...

Happy Monday to all...
After those things happen last week, I want to start new this week...
With more positive and energetic feelings...
May He granted what I'm wishing for, in sha Allah...
Let's have a look of the tips below which I Ctrl C + Ctrl V from Doctors Hangout FB...
I do find it very useful and easily to be practice immediately... =)

25 Ultimate Tips for Better Life By Doctors Hangout

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day & while you walk, SMILE. It is the ultimate antidepressant. (Lucky since I do love to SMILE)

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. (I need to do this regularly!)

3. When you wake up in the morning, Pray to ask God's guidance for your purpose, today. (Don't miss the Subuh prayer)

4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants. (More green please!)

5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, broccoli, and almonds. (Absolutely!)

6. Try to make at least three people smile each day. (Will try harder)

7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment. (Will try to reduce or even eliminate it... You know girls talk...)

8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card. (Eat more Red Apple... Which good for teeth too)

9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. (Will always stick it on my mind)

10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Forgive them for everything! (Undeniable)

11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. (Maybe I do become seriously...)

12.You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. (Always do!)

13. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present. (Smiley face =) )

14. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. (Hmmm....)

15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. (Trying hard to gain one true happiness)

16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?' (Will think +ve only)

17. Help the needy, be generous! Be a 'Giver' not a 'Taker' (Will do more frequently!)

18. What other people think of you is none of your business. (Hmmm...)

19. Time heals everything. (Waiting for it can be a tortured too)

20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. (Everything have silver lining behind it!)

21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. (Always do)

22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. (Yeah!!!)

23. Each night before you go to bed, pray to God and be thankful for what you'll accomplish, today! (One of ritual)

24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed. (Yeah, so true... I don't want all my nerve to become old before they need to be!)

25. Forward this to everyone on your list to help them lead a happier life... (Done by sharing it here)

How To Reduce Degree of Anger...

A good morning to all…
It’s sound quite funny but anyway it's morning…
So by saying good morning I do felt it could make me calm…
By the way, I’m the state of angry now…
Lots of factor contributes into it…
Currently while typing this entry I do feel an ease of feeling from the negative words of anger…
Alhamdullilah…
Might be it will be much and much better if I perform my ablution…
In sha Allah will be going to Surau after this…
While consulting with myself on how to reduce the feeling, I do ask Mr. Google in regards with ways to reduce the degree of anger…
As Mr. Google will always provide you with some insight, here I would like to share it…
It’s actually for my own reminder too…
I don’t want to look old by every single day have to deal with all the negative substance…
Here it goes….

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Cara Mengatasi Marah Dalam Islam

1. Mengubah Posisi. Rasulullah SAW bersabda:
“Apabila salah seorang di antara kamu marah, dan ketika itu ia dalam kedudukan berdiri, maka hendaklah ia duduk. Kerana hal itu akan menghilangkan marahnya. Dan kalau tidak, maka hendaklah ia berbaring.” (Riwayat Muslim)

2. Berwuduk. Rasulullah SAW bersabda:
“Marah itu datangnya daripada syaitan, dan syaitan itu diciptakan daripada api, sedangkan api itu hanya dipadamkan dengan air. Oleh itu apabila salah seorang di antara kamu marah, maka hendaklah ia berwuduk” (Hadis Riwayat Abi Daud) .

3. Minum air.

4. Mendiamkan diri ketika marah.

5. Berlindung kepada Allah daripada syaitan.

6. Meluahkan perasaan dan masalah dalam keadaan masa dan tempat sesuai.

7. Berfikiran positif.

8. Belajar menyampaikan kemarahan secara positif dan terhormat; mengelakkan daripada memekik atau bertindak garang.

9. Bawa bertenang seperti menarik nafas.

10. Senyum kerana senyuman mampu meredakan tekanan.

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I don't want to be like this...

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Instead I want to be like this...

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Eid 1433H Stories

Stories #1

On the eve of Eid, I suffered from sore throat…
In matter of fact I did lost my voice…
SoOn on the eve of Eid, I just using my non-pro sign language with my family…
If they don’t understand me, I’ll type using my mobile or tablet and show it to them…
What a funny story…
Maybe this is the “kifarah” to wash many of my sins…

Stories #2

Last year we (read: me and my family) celebrate our Eid-Fitr in my dad’s hometown, many of my mum’s relatives miss to celebrate it with us…
But alhamdullilah this year we celebrate it in my mum’s hometown…
At first my dad’s thought that all the food is enough as we do estimation on who will be coming on the 1st Shawal…
But it turns out that our probability knowledge kind of obsolete…
So the estimation when wrong…
Towards the evening, my dad’s whisper to us that we should close our gate as the food are about to finish…
Above all, it quite a happy feeling when whatever you offer to the people and the love it…
Thanks to my mum’s for cooking the delightful dish…

P/s: I’m still craving for her Rendang!

Stories #3

On the last Ramadhan, our families welcoming a couple of twins…
The twin is actually the 4th generation since in my mum’s side they do have 2 couples of twins which the 1st generation is my late grandpa siblings, 2nd generation is my late auntie uncle while the 3rd generation is my cousin…
Managed to visit the new born on 2nd Shawal…
They’re adorable to be cuddle…
But I don’t have the guts to do that since they’re so delicate…
However, being able to kiss them such a nice feeling…
Even the fragrance from their body will make a best perfume…
=) =) =)

Stories #4

Already back to the office…
As usual, will be occupied with lot and lots of work…
That’s what working life is like…
Like a never ending story unless you retired or anything…
But being sacred with a dedicated team such a true blessing…
Forget about the “kiasu” boss or the fussy peers or anything…
With that I do hope to cheer my working life…

P/s: Eid Mubarak... Minnal aidilwafaizin... =)

Double Wishes =)

It’s already 27th Ramadhan 1433H…
It’s had been 26 days we do fast in this holy month…
Hope all the good deeds will be rewarded by Him the Almighty Allah in sha Allah…
Been busy with work…
Lot and lots of things need to be done before the Eid…
As for me, I need to settle few urgent matters that will immediately continue after my Eid holidays ended…
This was my first time taking quite a long leave for Eid…
Normally I would sacrifice myself to be back in the office after 3rd or 4th of Eid…
For this year, I would just want to spend more time with families and friends…
Hope everything will go smoothly…
I think it’s not too late to wish everyone to have a good and quality Ramadhan al-Mubarak…
And again, it’s not too early to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin… =)

P/s:  It’s been 2months after my last update… very poor performance ;-)

After a Long Hiatus...

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It’s been 2 months I didn’t write anything here…
The word busy seems to be friend with me for quite sometimes…
Loaded with so many things, work, family and personal matters too...
Been trying to juggle my roles as a daughter, sister, colleague, head and the list are on…
However, life as always full of surprises…
The moment you thought that you have made a good decision, in a minute either you are happy with it or not…
As for me, as human we do make mistake…
I believe I did one which is major one…
But it’s happened and the damage is done…
On top of it, I know there’s always a silver lining…
Maybe that a sign from Him to always remind me of what I meant to be…
Trying my best to be a good one…
Please pray for my steadfast…
Anyway, last 2 weeks I just met with my ex-coursemate…
When meeting them I just realize how fast the time has flies…
Lot and lots of things change and of course changing for good isn’t a crime…
Happy to be able to meet them…
Have a good time in reminding how we actually able to make it…
Biggest praise goes to Him…
At the end of the day, I know everyday we need to face and accept new change, new paradigm or even new people in and out your life…
So what are you waiting for?
React to change or accept the change?
I leave the call to all of you….

P/s: I hope my readers are still there… If only I have any…

Weekend with Kuantan BFF…

Yesterday indeed a good day for me…
Early in the morning I prepared myself to meet my buddies that used to be with me through thick and thin when I was in Kuantan…
Be able to meet them after quite sometimes, just make me a happy person…
We do share our new updates, strolling down the memory lane and also keep teasing each other’s…
But what is most important we never failed to keep motivate each other’s…
That the beauty of this relationship…
Even though I just know them while I was working there but the relation that being build is seems to be years…
Alhamdullilah for the gift…
Yes, I might not impart with my other half yet but He does bestow me with all these lovely people…
Above all, what make me loves them is just because we’re from same boat and we are still trying to improve ourselves…
Truly, I do love all of you…
May we could arranged some gateway later, inshaAllah….

P/s:  I do miss blogging… :( Hope I can be more productive again!

Live Up Positively!!! =)

It’s been a while...
Quite busy with an obligation as PSD officer...
Besides learning to juggle with new thingy...
Seems like this year, He does bestow me with so many tests which sometime I do lose...
But lucky me since He does accompany me with great family and friends...
I owe Him a lot...
Indeed, He’s always there...
When times just don’t get along with me, there’ll be His help in so many ways...
Just finishing doing an ad-hoc job to my TLM...
The job which I didn’t do it since I’m no longer a student...
When doing it, it reminds me during my GBI785 class...
How I miss the wise Prof. Dr. Wan...
He’s class was really conducted in different approach...
We don’t have any tests which make us able to smile for quite sometimes...
However we need to present in front of the class with a vast of topic that sound straightforward but it doesn’t...
I miss the times when me and my teams in the middle in finishing the last major assignment...
We didn’t sleep and the next day needs to present it...
Alhamdullilah, we’ve made it with a huge success...
How fast time flies...
Back into reality, work have been very challenging...
With the super duper  that constantly gives a pressure, it does drive me up to the wall...
I always pray for the strength to face it patiently...
Since I know, “Verily after each difficulty, there’s a relief...”
He’s words that always a great medicine!!!
It’s truly a compilation of Love Letters...
Let’s live up positively!!! =)

P/s: Hope I can keep up to my old momentum in update this blog... ^_^

Words....

Worth to ponder...
Words can describe thousand one things...
In fact, it's more sharp than a sword...

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Just want to share something with all you here a speech that the late Steve Jobs (CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios) gave to college students from Stanford University in 2005 about LOVE: "You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your WORK as it is for your LOVERS. Your work is going to fill a LARGE PART of your LIFE, and the only way to be TRULY SATISFIED is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep on looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any GREAT RELATIONSHIP, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. DON'T SETTLE"

Lesson Learnt: When you FALL IN LOVE with what you do....fall in love with someone.. No matter what, you will settle with them... But when you still keep looking for something, feel uneasy, not comfortable with what you're currently doing... DON'T SETTLE... Go for something that you LOVE... Go for someone that you LOVE.... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012... Alhamdulillah...when you got what you LOVE, there's nothing else you want to look for but perform the very best of you to maintain your life with them.... InshaAllah, may this year bring wisdom, peace, cheer, health and wealth to all of us....

Courtesy: Puan Mimi Amin... Thanks for let me to share it... =)


Lawa atau tidak seorang perempuan,
Kacak atau tidak seorang lelaki,
Semuanya bergantung kepada akhlaknya di luaran, dan imannya di dalam hati.
Kerana kacak dan cantik yang sebenar itu bukan dari pandangan insan, tetapi atas nilaian Ilahi.

Courtesy: Hilal Asyraf

Dalam Sujud ku Bercerita . .
Dalam Sujud ku Meminta . .
Dalam Sujud ku Mengadu segalanya . .
Dalam Sujud ku Mengalirkan Airmata . .
Dalam Sujud ku Menemui Ketenangan dan Kedamaian . .
Dalam Sujud ku Menemui Kebahagiaan yang Hakiki . .
Dengarlah Rintihan Hambamu Ini Ya Allah di Setiap Kali Dalam Sujud ku PadaMU ya Rabb ^______^

Courtesy: Mencari Keredhaan Illahi

Bila takdir hidupmu begitu dan begini...
Yakinlah itu yang terbaik...
Kerana mana mungkin ALLAH menyakitimu...
Tanpa ada kemanisan di sebaliknya...
Sentiasalah bersangka baik dengan ALLAH...
Dalam apa jua keadaan...
Kerana ALLAH menurut sangkaan hambaNYA...
ALLAH maha penyayang dan kasih sayangNYA sentiasa mendahului kemurkaanNYA... (=

Courtesy: Mencari Keredhaan Illahi



"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."

Courtesy: Ralph Waldo Emerson

He’s There…

This morning when I was driving to work, there’s Sami Yusuf’s song entitled He Is There was on air…
The song was long time ago does attract me…
Until to the extend I do own his new album…
Somehow this song reminds me of Him…
How closet He with us, no matter in whatever conditions it takes…
And, remember, He will not burden not a person beyond his/her scope…
Indeed it’s very true…

"So verily, with the hardship, there is relief, Verily, with the hardship, there is relief (i.e. there is one hardship with two reliefs, so one hardship cannot overcome two reliefs)."
Al-Insyirah, Verse 5&6

"La yukallifullah hu nafsan illa wus a'ha” 
Allah tidak akan membebankan hambaNya melainkan dengan kesanggupannya 
Al- Baqarah, Verse 286

P/s: This my second entry for year 2012... Alhamdullilah for His gift to be able yo breath the air for another year...

Being a Fine Lady ^_^

Lately I’ve come across lot and lots of article…
It comprised so many topics which do attract my attention…
Thanks to websites such as I Luv Islam and others that similar to that…
And to forget bunch of friends who never fails to send me abn email that containing good advice…
Thanks so much!!!
Here, I would like to share something which I’ve copy from Sis Wina’s blog…
It’s about being a fine lady, inshaAllah…
The talk given by Dr Harlina Halizah Siraj in Twins of Faith conference on last December 2011…
Let’s read and digest whatever it’s good for our own sake…
It’s a good reminder for all and importantly for me too…

Women in Eyes of Allah - Dr Harlina Halizah Siraj 
Twins of Faith 2011, PICC
24th – 25th December 2011

"Submission to Allah is our FOCUS. Women NEVER submit to men. You DON'T BELONG to your husband. You don't wear HIJAB because of men. If you do, then you are not doing it right. You can have the worst man as your husband (think of Asiah & Firaun) Or have no husband (think of Maryam), you still can be the best woman in the eyes of Allah. Or you can have the best man as your husband (think of the wife of Prophet Lut a.s and Nuh a.s), and you still end up so screwed. So your WORTH is NOT DEFINED by men. MEN are just your TICKET to JANNAH.

But although you DON'T NEED a MAN to attain JANNAH, and you don't need a man TO BE THE BEST and reach your maximum potential, DON'T CLOSE your HEART to MAN. Allah has PROMISED for every toyyibat, He will send a toyyibin. So PRAY and believe He will GRANT you the toyyibin"

P/s: The morale: Please don't ever lose your hope to Him as He always be there for us... Always will be even tough sometimes or most of the time we do tend to forget Him... SubhanAllah...