Thanks to Life is an Open Secret!

In regards with my previous entry, yet the mode is still on…
I really hope that it will go away once I can get a grip but it seems not to be like what I’m been wishing for…
Day by day, I keep losing my grip…
Only to Him I shall return too…
But thanks to Him by providing me with a bunch of breathtaking people…
They keep pushing me to stand still and face the reality with the strong courage…
Keep telling me that what I’ve been through, it’s just a tip of the ice…
More yet to come…
Absolutely with more challenges…
That like what Sis Zabrina said in her book, “Face Challenges with Zest!”
Yes, with ZEST!!!
In that entry, she relate closely with my favorite quote…
“So verily, with the hardship, there is relief, verily, with hardship, there is relief”
[Ash-Sharh 94: 5-6]
When reading this entry, I know that I just a normal human being…
Never ever will be a perfect person…
Like one of my senior colleague always said, 100% will never be our mark… since we only can achieved up to 99.9%... another 0.01% is belong to his Almighty Allah SWT…
Again, when thinking of it, my tears keep falling…
When thinking about silly mistake that I made during one of my office events make me lost my grip…
I have tried so hard to make it work but I reluctantly feel superior on His power that calls fate…
I forgot that if the fate say so, even I’ve try to do as many back up plans as I would usually do, it will be as what as He destined it to be…
As I have mentioned above, those lovely people always let me see the silver lining in every things that had happen to me…
So I just have to let a few people talk and do whatever pleases them…
One day they will know how hard I’ve tried or maybe they will need to face whatever I’m been through!
I’m not a perfect person as what Hlovate’s had told in Versus (which it’s believe quoted from Old Joe’) that, “There’s always a room to reach perfection”
Which is also means that we can never be a PERFECT person but we can always try our best to reach as close to the PERFECTION level…
Now let bear in mind, that,

VERILY AFTER EACH DIFFICULTY, THEY’RE ALWAYS A RELIEF!

P/s: Please pray that I’ll always get a grip whenever difficulties circumstances caught me in… ^_^

Swing Mode

I miss my old days so much…
Maybe these happen when the pressure just can’t be digested anymore!
However we always need to face the reality…
I’m trying so hard now to tune in…
Just now having a FB chat with my former students…
Seeing that they did well in their study make me feel melted…
Suddenly I wish I could be there with them too…
I miss the times when I’m packed with those result analyses…
Rushing in doing the report before submitting it to my immediate boss before presenting it in front the BOD…
Miss the heat when we’re nearly has a cardiac arrest while waiting for the result to be out…
But somehow I know I need to get back into my reality…
Even sometimes the road is bumpy (which I think is always), reality is still reality!!!
Here I would like to share a symbolic lyric…
It’s sung by one of Nasyid group, Saujana..
The title might sound pathetic, but it’s absolutely wrong…
It has a meaning behind every word…

Kau tidak seperti dulu (Absolutely it is not me!)
Yang ku kenali dulu
Rupa hilang seri
Manakah manisnya

Kau tidak seperti dulu
Yang ku kenali dulu
Madah tak berlagu
Manakah girangnya (I’m happy but sometimes I do deserve to be sad too…)

Patah hati (Here it’s very cliché!)
Jangan terdampar sepi
Jangan tersungkur mati
Patah hati (Again the cliché part)
Jangan leburkan mimpi
Jangan memakan diri

Bukankah Tuhan ciptakan malam (I love this part, how He always know what we need the most!)
Untuk beradu menanti siang
Bukankah Tuhan titiskan hujan
Menanti limpah kemarau panjang (See, everything that happen always has its silver lining!)

P/s: Again, remember that every difficulties, there's always a relief... believe in Him in whatever situation and insyaAllah everything will be alright!

Nice to Ponder!

My weekend alhamdullilah filled with activities that can make me smile…
From Saturday evening I was doing my shopping spree with my girlfriends…
Then on Sunday such a blessed when you are able to spend your quality times with the loved ones…
By just seeing your lovely family and relatives does make you feel good!
Believe me… try it and then you will know how it felt…
This morning I was attending my division orientation…
After almost 10 months I was in the division suddenly I have to pretend I know nothing!
Kind of funny but at the end of the day I know it’s worth it…
I enjoy most of the session since it does give more information besides it successfully make me understand the division…
The best part is that I’m enjoying writing some words of wisdom which being shared by one of my Deputy Director…
He’s very good in entertaining people and you won’t be bored during his session…
However the message which has been delivered by my Director does open my eyes in seeing how’s important my division is…
Thanks to all…

Tune in before you turn on!

Do the right thing meaningful…

Tell the truth quickly even if it’s hard to say…

Know you purpose

Stop criticizing the upper management!

Manage the agreement not the people!

Focus on the result not the excuses…

Always use positive reinforcement….

Create a good relationship…

Let your mind rule your heart…

Deliver the reward accordingly…

Make it happen today, don’t wait…

P/s: Since some of the officers here are using the title as Assistant Director, my Deputy Director have jokingly saying that how our Director always need help from the Assistant Director and look that Deputy Director is so strong and it’s doesn’t need any help from other people…

Double Wishes

I would like to wish Happy Birthday to my beloved Mum and my Aunt Nong!
They do share a same birth date but with different year of course…
Then when I come into the office I get to known that one of the staff here also sharing the same birthday with my families…
Plus my ex-neighbor was also sharing the same birth date…
Happy Birthday to all, May Allah bless =)

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That was the morning story…
Just now I have news that can’t stop make me smile…
I’ve passed the exam that I’ve taken on last October 2010…
Alhamdullilah… thanks for the gift…
Now I need to wait for few more procedure in order to get a confirmation…
Hopefully everything will be alright…

P/s: Thanks to those people who never fails to support me through tick and thin…

New Year Resolution for 2011

Again, this is a New Year Resolution which has been generated from this website, http://moninavelarde.com/newyears/
Yet, I do believe that some of the resolution that is kinds suitable for me...
So here is the list....

Watch a documentary – will do especially Nat Geo

Have a garage sale – thinking to let go some stuff

See the good in people – insyaAllah will always do

Roast marshmallows over a fire – normally let it melt with hot cocoa

Encourage a co-worker – always do

Friend a person with the same name as me on Facebook – haven’t try

Try harder – inysaAllah…

Throw a Penny in the fountain – done while in Malacca about 13 years ago…

Reuse – always especially plastic bag

Get some sleep – done

Find the time – need to do it

Look for the silver lining – insyaAllah trying so hard

Drink hot cocoa – my favorite

Think before I speak – need to frequently apply…

Join a choir – need to find a gang

Be honest – insyaAllah always do…

Speak up – my traits

Become an expert in something – in a way to turn it into reality

Learn to say HELLO in 5 languages – learning it now

Dance – will learn it

Wear sunglasses – always do since I have eyes problem

Reconnect with an old friend – my part-time activity

Not dwell on the past – will try harder as the past did left something in me…

Make short film – my dream, try to achieve it

Make my bed – always do!

Participate – accomplished either voluntarily or being forced to

Spread kindness – insyaAllah will always do

Follow through – need to do more often

Be more understanding – will try regularly

Take a nap – thing that I missed once I’m officially become a career lady

Watch an episode of Oprah – always do

Drink more tea – my favorite too

Be happy and healthy – insyaAllah will try more

Inspire – insyaAllah

Lighten up – need to try harder

Stay in touch – insyaAllah!

Work smarter – finding a suitable way

Make something new everyday – always in my top list

Get married – insyaAllah when the right time comes…

Care deeply – insyaAllah always

Carpool - done

Write a story – in my top dreams!

Bring a reusable bag to the grocery store – sometimes need to do more often

Eat a whole tomato like an apple – hmm big question mark

Be spontaneous – try even harder

Look up at the sky – always do!

Appreciate nature – compulsory in supporting and caring the Mother Nature

Call mom and dad more often – need to do more!

Move around – always

Learn to cope – try even more than before

Spend less time browsing and more time doing – hmm quite hard…

Travel – in my list

Throw a dinner party – planning about it

Imagine – always!

Watch the sunset – need to find time and place

Improve – will definitely do it always

Believe – always do!

Take more photos – need a camera!

Stop. Collaborate. (And Listen) – will try more

Spend more time with myself – need to seek the time

Be curious – it’s part of me

Learn to cope – need to practice more

Be me – always through and through

Take more chances – insyaAllah

Be carefree – always my goal

Think about it – keep and always think

Be a leader – I’m being one now

Enjoy every minute – insyaAllah will always do…

Find Mr. or Ms. Right – I’m smiling, insyaAllah…

Learn to commit – again, it’s killing me…

Take risks – need to do more!

Go sailing – wanted to do and time and friend is the constraint

Live life to the fullest – forever...

P/s: Pray that I can achieved it all, insyaAllah =)